September 20 Wednesday – At 9:30 a.m., Sam called for Charles and Ida Langdon at the Waldorf Hotel, but after a long search they were not found. Charles was in New York with some sort of ailment where he could not eat, and under the care of Dr. Fuller. After receiving a note later in the day from Ida, Sam returned to the hotel at 5:30 p.m. in his “morning clothes.”

They arrived from driving at that moment, & we had a pleasant half hour together….Dr. Fuller has taken hold of him vigorously, with massage & all sorts of things, & says he can’t budge from his hands for a week [Sept 21, 1st to Livy].

Late at night Sam was “smitten suddenly with shame & remorse” remembering how he refused to stop one time at the Elmira Water Cure as Livy had requested, and how he drove “through the thunder & lightning & rain that night” that frightened her. The guilt and remorse connected him even to Hannibal near-death events:

I have remembered that brutality many a time since, & cursed myself for it. It is at times like these that I also visit with deep & honest curses the memory of those various people who plucked me from the water when I was a lad & drowning [Sept. 21, 1st to Livy].